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My goals are to pursue my passion for social entrepreneurship in fashion. As a child, I would cut up shirts to make my own outfits. I rarely found clothing that matched my style, so I took matters into my own hands. VogueVilla (https://voguevilla.net/) was born out of my wish to share my selections with other teens and inspire teens to feel confident in their own skin and to thrive with their uniqueness. My mission includes sharing my dream by donating clothes to teens who need them. I am an ideal candidate for this scholarship. I have worked hard to overcome celiac disease and anorexia and through these hardships, have gained resilience and now use my strengths to help others. This passion motivates me to work toward social justice including lobbying in Washington DC, fundraising for a non-profit celiac organization, mentoring newly diagnosed children with celiac, and volunteering at a preschool in a poor community. During high school I completed 4 college classes with As and am now taking two summer college classes. Also, while developing Voguevilla, I created my own website and computer analytics. So far over 2,300 people visited my site. In Oct. 2023, I was selected to participate in Young Entrepreneurs Academy where we learn how to run a businesses. In May I pitched my plan to investors and received $1,500 for funding. I am ideal candidate because my sister has special needs, so my parents spent their money on her private school since 2nd grade. We don’t have savings for my college, so I work 25 hrs/wk as a dog sitter to contribute to college.
Education
Widener University
Bachelor's degree programMajors:
- Communication, General
Minors:
- Entrepreneurial and Small Business Operations
Pennsylvania Virtual Charter
High SchoolSacred Heart Academy
High SchoolHaverford High School
High SchoolMiscellaneous
Desired degree level:
Bachelor's degree program
Graduate schools of interest:
Transfer schools of interest:
Majors of interest:
- Communication, General
- Psychology, General
Career
Dream career field:
Marketing and Advertising
Dream career goals:
Own my own fashion business and develop programs in the community for teen girls
Sports
Dancing
Club2015 – 20205 years
Arts
I currently own my own business, Voguevilla.net and have designed and sold my own clothing designs.
Design2023 – Present
Public services
Volunteering
Del Co Helping Hands Community Pantry — Member and advocate2024 – PresentVolunteering
Camp Dreamcatcher — Volunteer2023 – 2023Volunteering
Basic Kindness, Media PA — Volunteer2021 – 2022Volunteering
Mission 5&2 Basketball Camp, Ardmore PA — Volunteer counselor2023 – 2023Volunteering
Child Development Center Internship, Chester, PA — Volunteer intern2023 – 2023Advocacy
Beyond Celiac — Member and advocate2015 – Present
Future Interests
Advocacy
Volunteering
Philanthropy
Entrepreneurship
Joy Of Life Inspire’s AAA Scholarship
My outlook on life has been profoundly shaped by living with mental health challenges, yet I have overcome these and now live with a passion for helping others. This scholarship resonated with my capacity for empathy, compassion and striving to ease the pain of others.
My struggles started after I was diagnosed with celiac disease. “I want to grow N-O-W!” was the only thing 4-year-old Zoe cared about. I was smaller than the smallest 3-year-old at my school because of celiac. Between my size and food restrictions, I felt different and despondent. Even as a young child, I was extremely careful to avoid gluten, but even after years of scary endoscopies, tests showed I was eating gluten. That is, until a world-renowned doctor uncovered that I had a rare case that was unresponsive to a gluten-free diet. My subsequent treatment plan for the next four months was a severely restrictive diet with zero processed foods, requiring my mom to make my food from the garden. Even though I excelled at school and enjoyed sleepovers (always having to bring my own food), my anxiety became unmanageable until 2020, when I developed anorexia.
People do not notice how much food plays a role in one’s life until they are deprived of it. Through my recovery, I became addicted to being as thin as possible, as I found something I could finally control. I had taken out years of worry due to celiac disease on my body. In 2020, I was admitted inpatient, where I met others who understood what I was going through. I met my therapist, who I genuinely believed saved my life through our hard work together. She continues to help me through my recovery and has supported me unconditionally. Through our work together, I am so much closer to achieving inner freedom and am passionate about inspiring others so that they can reach recovery.
In 2023, I started my own business and participated in the Young Entrepreneurs Academy (https://yeausa.org/), where we learned how to run a business. Rooted in my struggle with celiac and an eating disorder, I created Voguevilla, an online boutique dedicated to fostering a culture of inclusivity and body positivity. Our mantra, "Your body is your home," embodies the belief that embracing one's own body and uniqueness is essential for overall well-being. The YEA investor panel granted me $1,500 as startup funds. I was fortunate that my parents had health insurance to pay for my treatments. Only 20% of the 30 million people in the US who have an eating disorder ever receive treatment (https://www.theprojectheal.org/our-mission). My goal is to contribute a portion of Voguevilla’s profits to Project Heal for those who cannot afford treatment.
My outlook has been shaped by my passion for social justice and giving to others. With the non-profit Beyond Celiac I lobbied in DC to ensure that laws are passed to label drugs gluten-free, mentored newly diagnosed children with celiac, and raised over $1,000 for celiac research. My struggles have given me the opportunity to learn how to pivot in the face of failure and persist. Bigger challenges including having to attend inpatient treatment again and smaller ones include having to find funds to sustain Voguevilla. I shifted from anxious and insecure to toward learning to approach life’s pressures with grace and patience.
I have gained resilience and am motivated to use my strengths to help others through social entrepreneurship. These lessons have prepared me for college. I am excited to study entrepreneurship, continue to build Voguevilla and work toward improving the lives of others.
Rossi and Ferguson Memorial Scholarship
What could go wrong? There were times when EVERYTHING that could go wrong went wrong. In the field of mental health there is a saying, “recovery is not linear” and I learned that the hard way. Yet what went right for me was my passion for life and my family’s unending support for me. Here is a snapshot of my story.
My struggles started after I was diagnosed with celiac disease. “I want to grow N-O-W!” was the only thing 4-year-old Zoe cared about. I was smaller than the smallest 3-year-old at my school because of celiac. Between my size and food restrictions, I felt different and despondent. Even as a young child, I was extremely careful to avoid gluten, but even after years of scary endoscopies, tests showed I was eating gluten. That is, until a world-renowned doctor uncovered that I had a rare case that was unresponsive to a gluten-free diet. My subsequent treatment plan for the next four months was a severely restrictive diet with zero processed foods, requiring my mom to make my food from the garden. Even though I excelled at school, enjoyed sleepovers (always having to bring my own food), danced competitively, and loved fun, my sadness and anxiety became unmanageable until 2020, when I developed anorexia.
People do not notice how much food plays a role in one’s life until they are deprived of it. Through my recovery, I became addicted to being as thin as possible, as I found something I could finally control. I had taken out years of worry and anger due to celiac disease on my mind and body. In 2020, I was admitted inpatient, where I met adults and teens who understood what I was going through. I met my therapist, Alaina, who I genuinely believed saved my life through our hard work together. At the end of 2021, I was severely bullied. I texted my friends for help at lunch while crying in the bathroom one day, yet no one came. My mom picked me up from school and that night someone messaged my snapchat, “You are ugly.” Twenty-one Tylenols later I cried in a panic to my mom that I had done something awful. My worry was that she would be mad with me…she hugged me tightly as my dad drove us to the emergency room. I panicked as I thought about death and at this point I realized the value of life – it was a wake-up call and that I wanted to live no matter what. After 2 months at an inpatient unit again and several months of day-treatment I was on the path to recovery again. Alaina continues to help me through my recovery and has supported me unconditionally. The task was survival! Through our work together I stayed motivated day by day. I am so much closer to achieving inner freedom and am passionate about sharing my story and inspiring others so that they can reach recovery. Since then, my passion for life has allowed me to focus on healthy relationships and that just one true friend is so much more important than being part of the group of fake friends.
Check this out… In 2023, I started my own business, VogueVilla LLC (https://voguevilla.net/), and participated in the Young Entrepreneurs Academy (https://yeausa.org/), where we learn how to run a business. Rooted in my struggle with celiac and subsequent eating disorders, I created Voguevilla, an online boutique dedicated to fostering a culture of inclusivity and body positivity. Our mantra, "Your body is your home," embodies the belief that true beauty radiates from within and that embracing one's own body and uniqueness (with or without a food allergy) is essential for overall well-being. In May 2024, the YEA investor panel granted me $1,500 as startup funds. I have developed a relationship with Project Heal whose mission it is to break down systemic, healthcare, and financial barriers to eating disorder healing. I was fortunate that my parents had health insurance to pay for my treatments and finances to support an expensive gluten free diet because only 20% of the 30 million people in the United States who are diagnosed with an eating disorder ever receive treatment (https://www.theprojectheal.org/our-mission). My goal is to contribute a portion of VogueVilla’s profits to Project Heal to be used to help those who cannot afford treatment.
I have turned my struggles into a passion to work toward social justice. With the non-profit Beyond Celiac, I lobbied in DC to ensure that laws are passed to label drugs gluten-free, mentored newly diagnosed children with celiac, and in 2023 raised over $1,000 for celiac research. I now realize that my experience with celiac disease and its painful consequences has given me the opportunity to learn how to pivot in the face of failure and persist no matter what. These include big challenges such as having to attend inpatient treatment for a second time to more mundane business challenges. For Voguevilla I originally used drop shipping which resulted in low sales, so I had to redo my entire website and shift to wholesaling. Another challenge is that I am working with small startup funds, so I have to work hard to raise funds to make my business profitable. I now approach life’s pressures and business challenges with grace and patience learning not to sweat the small stuff. And instead of asking, “What could go wrong,” I ask “How will I handle this challenge.”
I have worked hard to overcome celiac, anorexia, and depression and through these hardships, I have gained resilience and want to continue to use my strengths to help others through social entrepreneurship. For me, the outcome has been a life I love! These lessons, though difficult, have prepared me for college. I am excited to study communications and entrepreneurship in college, to continue to build Voguevilla and to contribute to improving the lives of others.
Jonathan Tang Memorial Scholarship
My personality and outlook on life have been profoundly shaped by living with mental health challenges, yet I have overcome these and live with persistence and passion.
My struggles started after I was diagnosed with celiac disease. “I want to grow N-O-W!” was the only thing 4-year-old Zoe cared about. I was smaller than the smallest 3-year-old at my school because of celiac. Between my size and food restrictions, I felt different and despondent. Even as a young child, I was extremely careful to avoid gluten, but even after years of scary endoscopies, tests showed I was eating gluten. That is, until a world-renowned doctor uncovered that I had a rare case that was unresponsive to a gluten-free diet. My subsequent treatment plan for the next four months was a severely restrictive diet with zero processed foods, requiring my mom to make my food from the garden. Even though I excelled at school and enjoyed sleepovers (always having to bring my own food), my anxiety became unmanageable until 2020, when I developed anorexia.
People do not notice how much food plays a role in one’s life until they are deprived of it. Through my recovery, I became addicted to being as thin as possible, as I found something I could finally control. I had taken out years of worry and anger due to celiac disease on my mind and body. In 2020, I was admitted inpatient, where I met others who understood what I was going through. I met my therapist, who I genuinely believed saved my life through our hard work together. She continues to help me through my recovery and has supported me unconditionally. Through our work together, I am so much closer to achieving inner freedom and am passionate about inspiring others so that they can reach recovery.
In 2023, I started my own business, VogueVilla, LLC and participated in the Young Entrepreneurs Academy (https://yeausa.org/), where we learn how to run a business. Rooted in my struggle with celiac and an eating disorder, I created Voguevilla, an online boutique dedicated to fostering a culture of inclusivity and body positivity. Our mantra, "Your body is your home," embodies the belief that embracing one's own body and uniqueness is essential for overall well-being. YEA investor panel granted me $1,500 as startup funds. I was fortunate that my parents had health insurance to pay for my treatments and expensive gluten free diet. Only 20% of the 30 million people in the US who have an eating disorder ever receive treatment (https://www.theprojectheal.org/our-mission). My goal is to contribute a portion of Voguevilla’s profits to Project Heal for those who cannot afford treatment.
My outlook is shaped on working toward social justice. With the non-profit Beyond Celiac I lobbied in DC to ensure that laws are passed to label drugs gluten-free, mentored newly diagnosed children with celiac, and raised over $1,000 for celiac research. My experience with mental health struggles has given me the opportunity to learn how to pivot in the face of failure and persist. These include big challenges like having to attend inpatient treatment again to having to work hard to find funds to sustain Voguevilla. My personality shifted from anxious and insecure to working toward approaching life’s pressures with grace and patience learning not to sweat the small stuff.
Through these hardships, I have gained resilience and am motivated to use my strengths to help others through social entrepreneurship. These lessons have prepared me for college. I am excited to study entrepreneurship in college, continue to build Voguevilla and work toward improving the lives of others.
Elevate Mental Health Awareness Scholarship
Jay, a 4-year-old at the pre-school where I intern, was wailing in the “quiet corner” alone. Tiptoeing to the corner, I asked Jay what happened. Gasping for air through the tears, he mumbled his words. I whispered, “Talk in your big boy voice.” He said, “I am sad because I don’t know how to listen to the teacher.”
Realizing that 4-year-olds can put their feelings into words if given the opportunity and that punishment without a conversation leaves kids confused and scared, I responded, “You can listen! You are listening to me right now.” We ended the conversation with a hug to remind him that like all children, his actions and words are valued.
This conversation resonated with me because this is something I went through as a young girl with a high emotional intelligence. I always experienced my feelings deeply. I can remember countless meltdowns in the years following my diagnosis of celiac disease at the age of 4.
“I want to grow N-O-W!” was the only thing my 4-year-old self cared about. I was smaller than the smallest 3-year-old at my school because of celiac. Between my size and food restrictions, I felt different and despondent. Even as a young child, I was extremely careful to avoid gluten, but even after years of scary endoscopies, tests showed I was eating gluten. That is, until a world-renowned doctor uncovered that I had a rare case that was unresponsive to a gluten free diet. My subsequent treatment plan was a severely restrictive diet with zero processed foods, requiring my mom to make my food from the garden. Even though I excelled at school, played travel soccer, and enjoyed sleepovers (always having to bring my own food) my sadness and anxiety became unmanageable until 2020 when I developed anorexia. People do not notice how much food plays a role in one’s life until they are deprived of it.
I became addicted to being as small as I could, as I found something I could finally control. I had taken out my years of worry and anger on myself. In 2020, I was admitted to the Renfrew Eating Disorder Residence where I met Alaina, my therapist, who saved my life through our hard work together. For friends, I relied on those I met in treatment and on the safety of family. My recovery process began…
However, my struggle with the eating disorder led me to feelings I never felt before. At 15, after a peer posted, “You are ugly,” I was rushed to the hospital after I overdosed. The depression became intolerable. My life felt ruined living with a dark cloud over my head. I remember shaking uncontrollably as the doctors prodded at every vein to insert the IV. This type of fear I had never dreamed of; all I could think about was “I don’t want to die.” Coming this close to death was my most significant awakening.
I have learned that life is precious, not guaranteed. I became passionate about sharing my story and inspiring others so that they, too, can reach recovery. Alaina has supported me no matter how difficult my situation became, reminding me repeatedly - You Got This. Our hard work together since 2020, her support, patience, and my perseverance, has brought me so much closer to achieving inner freedom. Family therapy taught me how to understand struggles from their perspectives as well as how to have genuine drama free relationships. I have come to value having one true friend over having many surface friends.
I am excited for college. My career aspirations are to pursue my passion for social entrepreneurship in fashion. As a child, I would cut up shirts to make my own outfits. I rarely found clothing that matched my style, so I took matters into my own hands. VogueVilla LLC (https://voguevilla.net/) was born out of my wish to share my selections with other teens and inspire teens to feel confident in their own skin and to thrive with their uniqueness. In 2023, I was selected to participate in Young Entrepreneurs Academy (https://yeausa.org/) where we learn how to run a business. I recently pitched my plan to investors and received $1,500 for startup costs.
Rooted in my personal struggle with eating disorders, Voguevilla is dedicated to fostering a culture of inclusivity and body positivity. Our mantra, "Your body is your home," embodies my belief that true beauty radiates from within and that embracing one's own body is essential for overall well-being. Once Voguevilla starts earning a profit, I will donate a portion of sales to the National Eating Disorder Association. Over 30% of individuals with eating disorders do not obtain the help they need so over the long term these funds will be used to help others fund their treatment.
My mental health struggles have given me the tools to learn how to pivot in the face of failure and persist no matter what. I have worked hard to overcome celiac disease and anorexia and through these hardships, have gained resilience and now use my strengths to help others. I am passionate about working toward social justice whether it be lobbying in Washington DC for labeling medications gluten free, fundraising for a non-profit celiac organization, mentoring newly diagnosed children with celiac, or volunteering at a preschool in a poor community. I also aspire to collaborate with experts to create a mentoring program, called “You Got This” to instill feelings of hope among those facing challenges such as eating disorders, and dietary restrictions. I will strive to be a source of inspiration by continuing to advocate for mental health and financial resources and to normalize the struggles and the healing. Through my passion for social entrepreneurship, mentorship programs and by sharing my story, other teens will know recovery is possible.
Janean D. Watkins Overcoming Adversity Scholarship
My struggles started after I was diagnosed with celiac disease. “I want to grow
N-O-W!” was the only thought my four-year-old self cared about. As a Kindergartener, I was smaller than the smallest Pre-K three-year-old because of damage caused by celiac. Between my size and food restrictions, I felt different and sad. Even after years of endoscopies, the results convinced my doctor that I was somehow eating gluten. Even worse, the doctor blamed me and my parents for seemingly eating gluten. That was until my doctor uncovered that I had a rare case of celiac that was unresponsive to a gluten-free diet. My new treatment plan was a severely restrictive diet with zero processed foods, requiring my mom to prepare my food from the garden. Though I excelled at school, enjoyed friendships, and danced competitively my sadness and anxiety became unmanageable when in 2020, I developed anorexia. People don’t notice how much food plays a role in life until they are deprived of it.
I became addicted to being as small as possible, as I found something I could finally control. I had taken out years of worry and anger on my body. In October 2020, I was admitted inpatient where I met my current therapist, who saved my life through our hard work together. I learned that health and life are precious, and not guaranteed. My therapist supported me no matter how difficult my situation became, reminding me again and again- You Got This. Our hard work together beginning in 2020, her support, patience, and perseverance, has brought me so much closer to inner freedom.
Through my recovery I gained resilience. I will attend college and major in Communication studies with a minor in Marketing. I was selected to participate in a Young Entrepreneurs Academy (https://yeaphiladelphia.org/) where I am learning how to develop my own online clothing business geared toward teens of all shapes and sizes. As a child, I would cut up shirts to make my own outfits. I rarely found clothing that matched my style, so I took matters into my own hands. VogueVilla LLC (https://voguevilla.net/) was born out of my wish to share my selections with other teens and inspire teens to feel confident in their own skin and to thrive with their uniqueness. My mission is to empower individuals, recognizing that everybody is unique and deserving of respect. Rooted in my personal struggle with an eating disorder, Voguevilla is dedicated to fostering a culture of inclusivity and body positivity. Once Voguevilla starts earning a profit, I will donate a portion of sales to the National Eating Disorder Association. Over 30 percent of individuals with eating disorders do not obtain the help they need so over the long term these funds will be used to help others fund their treatment. Azoe key part of my mission is giving back to the community, including sharing my dream by donating clothes to teens living in shelters and to community-based organizations in low-resourced communities.
I also want to create a mentoring program for high school girls, called “You Got This” to instill feelings of hope among those facing challenges including cyberbullying, eating disorders, and dietary restrictions. I will be a source of inspiration by continuing to advocate for mental health resources and to normalize the struggles and also the healing so other teens will know that recovery is possible. This would have helped me tremendously. I hope to receive this scholarship to continue my academic career, work toward becoming a successful entrepreneur and helping teens the way others have helped me. I got this!
Jessie Koci Future Entrepreneurs Scholarship
My goals are to pursue my passion for social entrepreneurship in fashion. I will attend college and major in Communication studies with a minor in Marketing. As a child, I would cut up shirts to make my own outfits. I rarely found clothing that matched my style, so I took matters into my own hands. VogueVilla LLC (https://voguevilla.net/) was born out of my wish to share my selections with other teens and inspire teens to feel confident in their own skin and to thrive with their uniqueness. In Oct. 2023, I was selected to participate in Young Entrepreneurs Academy (https://yeausa.org/) where we learn how to run a business. In May I will pitch my plan to investors for funding.
At Voguevilla, my mission is to empower individuals, recognizing that everybody is unique and deserving of respect. Rooted in my personal struggle with eating disorders, Voguevilla is dedicated to fostering a culture of inclusivity and body positivity. Our mantra, "Your body is your home," embodies our belief that true beauty radiates from within and that embracing one's own body is essential for overall well-being. Through our products, services, and community engagement, we strive to inspire confidence, encourage self-expression, and promote a healthy relationship with oneself. Based on my computer analytics over one million individuals have viewed VogueVilla.net since October 2023. Once Voguevilla starts earning a profit, I will donate a portion of sales to the National Eating Disorder Association. Over 30 percent of individuals with eating disorders do not obtain the help they need so over the long term these funds will be used to help others fund their treatment. Also, a key part of my mission is giving back to the community, including sharing my dream by donating clothes to teens living in shelters and to community-based organizations in low-resourced communities.
I am an ideal candidate for this scholarship. I believe I will be a successful entrepreneur because I know how to pivot in the face of failure and persist no matter what. I have worked hard to overcome celiac disease and anorexia and through these hardships, have gained resilience and now use my strengths to help others. I have been fortunate that my parents have health insurance that helped pay for my eating disorder treatment. I am passionate about working toward social justice whether it be lobbying in Washington DC, fundraising for a non-profit celiac organization, mentoring newly diagnosed children with celiac, or volunteering at a preschool in a poor community. For me a successful life looks like following my passion to be an entrepreneur, working toward success in business, completing college, using my education to succeed as an entrepreneur, all while working toward making the world a better place. In the long term I look forward to having a family of my own.
Chronic Boss Scholarship
WinnerLiving with a chronic medical condition presented enormous challenges, yet I have overcome and live with persistence and passion. My struggles started after I was diagnosed with celiac disease. “I want to grow N-O-W!” was the only thought my four-year-old self cared about. As a Kindergartener, I was smaller than the smallest Pre-K three-year-old because of damage caused by celiac. Between my size and food restrictions, I felt different and sad. Even after years of endoscopies, the results convinced my doctor that I was somehow eating gluten. Even worse, the doctor blamed me and my parents for seemingly eating gluten. That was until Dr. Fasano, a world-renowned gastroenterologist uncovered that I had a rare case of celiac that was unresponsive to a gluten-free diet. My new treatment plan was a severely restrictive diet with zero processed foods, requiring my mom to prepare my food from the garden. Though I excelled at school, enjoyed friendships, and danced competitively my sadness and anxiety became unmanageable when in 2020, I developed anorexia. People do not notice how much food plays a role in life until they are deprived of it.
I became addicted to being as small as possible, as I found something I could finally control. I had taken out years of worry and anger on my body. In October 2020, I was admitted as an inpatient to Renfrew Eating Disorder Center where I met Alaina my current therapist, who saved my life through our hard work together. I learned that health and life are precious, and not guaranteed. I became passionate about sharing my story and inspiring others so that they, too, can reach recovery. My therapist, Alaina, supported me no matter how difficult my situation became, reminding me again and again- You Got This. Our hard work together beginning in 2020, her support, patience, and perseverance, has brought me so much closer to inner freedom.
My goal is to pursue my passions in social entrepreneurship. In 2023 I launched a startup, an online business, VogueVilla (https://voguevilla.net/) out of my wish to offer styles for all sizes and shapes and inspire teens to feel confident. My Voguevilla mission includes sharing my dream by donating clothes to teens in need. I am an ideal candidate for this scholarship as I have worked intensely to overcome the challenges of celiac disease and anorexia and through these hardships, have gained resilience and now and in the future will use my strengths to help others in the community.
My recovery has motivated me to work toward social justice including lobbying in Washington DC for the proper labeling of gluten free medications, fundraising for Beyond Celiac, a non-profit celiac organization, mentoring newly diagnosed children with celiac, and volunteering at a preschool in an underserved community. In 2023, I was selected to participate in Young Entrepreneurs Academy (https://yeausa.org/) where we meet weekly to develop our businesses, which I will continue to build on with my college education focusing on communications, social media, and entrepreneurship. When my business becomes profitable, I will donate a portion of each sale to organizations that serve teen girls in need. I plan to collaborate with experts to create a mentoring program, called “You Got This” to instill feelings of hope among those facing challenges such as eating disorders, and dietary restrictions. I will strive to be a source of inspiration by continuing to advocate for mental health and financial resources and to normalize the struggles and the healing. Through mentorship programs and by sharing my success story, other teens will know recovery is possible. I Got This!
Mental Health Scholarship for Women
Learning about mental health has been a huge part of my development beginning at age 4, when I was diagnosed with celiac disease. “I want to grow N-O-W!” was my only care in the world. At age 5, I was smaller than the smallest 3-year-old at my school because of damage caused by celiac. Between my size and food restrictions, I felt different and sad. As a child, I was so careful to avoid gluten, but even after years of scary endoscopies, the tests convinced my doctor that I was somehow eating gluten. That was until a world-renowned gastroenterologist uncovered that I had a rare case of celiac that was unresponsive to a gluten-free diet. At age 10, my new treatment plan was a severely restrictive diet with zero processed foods, requiring my mom to make my food from the garden. Even though I excelled at school, danced competitively, and enjoyed sleepovers (having to bring my own food), my anxiety became unmanageable. In 2020, I developed anorexia. People do not notice how much food plays a role in life until they are deprived of it.
I became addicted to being as small as I could; I found something I could finally control. I had taken out my years of worry and anger on myself. In 2020, I was admitted to the Renfrew Eating Disorder Residential Center where I met Alaina, my therapist, who saved my life through our hard work together. At this point academics felt meaningless. I did what I had to do and just that. My recovery process took precedent and had only just begun…
At 15 years old, after a peer posted on my Instagram, “You are ugly,” I was rushed to the hospital after I overdosed. The depression became intolerable. My life felt ruined. Shaking uncontrollably as the doctors prodded at every vein to insert the IV I experience fear that I had never dreamed of; all I could think about was “I don’t want to die.” Coming so close to death was my most significant awakening.
I have learned that life is precious, not guaranteed. I became passionate about sharing my story and inspiring others so that they, too, can reach recovery. Alaina, has supported me no matter how difficult my situation became, reminding me repeatedly - You Got This. Our hard work, her support, patience, and my perseverance, has brought me so much closer to achieving freedom. Just recently she suggested we meet bimonthly instead of weekly. Progress!
I have gained resilience and now have the luxury of prioritizing my academics and am so excited for college. I have learned that having even one true friend is a blessing and I actively prioritize my mental health by eating well, going to the gym (when I want to, not when my anorexia mandated it), spending time with my few true friends, focusing on my own interests (I now own my own online clothing line, https://voguevilla.net/, geared toward teens of all sizes) and actively engaging in recovery activities.
I see my struggles with mental health as a blessing in disguise. Having goals, keeping up with school and definitely keeping conscious of my feelings are priorities. In addition to building my business, my goal is to create a mentoring program, called “You Got This” to instill feelings of hope among those facing challenges such as cyberbullying, eating disorders, and dietary restrictions. Part of my recovery process is to serve as a source of strength and inspiration by advocating for mental health resources and normalizing not only the struggles but also the healing. I Got This!