This opportunity is meaningful to me because I am a Believer in Christ Jesus, a Christian and I’m pursuing Psychology to be a Christian Pyschologist to heal people from the spiritual illnesses of mental health diseases, and to work with those who may have disabilities. I grew up with ADHD as a child and I struggled with a lot Flesh sinful desires that came along with it. The main one was Maladaptive Daydreaming. My teen years I was very lukewarm and even in my early 20s (20-22) at the age of 22 in the month of June 2022 The Holy Spirit convicted me and released me from all things that were sin and idolatry. August 2022 I started my journey and Faith in God, and each month I grew closer and closer to Him. In February 2023 I fasted and God took away my disability and Maladaptive Daydreaming. God also put me into the school that He called me to be in for my Psychology major after getting my Associates degree in December 2022. My Faith in God has released me from Financial Aid debt and released me from Friendships that were not called by Him and helped me continually prosper and fight off lies from the enemy. God has placed me in a job that will pay for my schooling and that would work around my school schedule considering that my previous jobs would not do so. I’m applying for this scholarship because I do come from a low income background and I still live with my family. This scholarship will help me get through college and put no more of a burden on my parents. I know this is the path that God called me to be on because He told me, when I was depressed in 2020 May about not knowing why I exist or what I want to do in life or if I have a purpose, I was suicidal, low in my spirit, and God’s voice while everything was stilled, in a soft whisper, said, “Psychology”. Ever since then it has been my passion to be a Psychologist. This was God’s doing, if I never listened to Him, I would not have had the experience of God using my major that He gave to me to show me all the spiritual unhealthy activities I was doing, and convicting me out of them. I believe that God placed me on this path to help my mother, she is going through spiritual warfare right now and I don’t know her anymore and my Dad made it worse. So I’m staying here with them so that God through His Holy Spirit can use me to help her get better. With all of this being said, I plan to utilize your faith as a guiding force in reaching even greater heights in the future by working as a Christian Counselor/Christian Psychology teacher once I get my PhD so that I can help Christians of all ages overcome the attacks of the enemy that Satan is bestowing on this Generation and age. I’ll also get my degrees in theology and seminary so that I can minister the gospel in those Psychology classes. I feel that God is calling me to something very great. And He wants to use me. And I want to be used by Him! This 10k will provide for me during the time that I’m getting my Bachelors and Masters in Psychology at SNHU (Southern New Hampshire University), and I’ll be getting my PhD at Liberty University a Christian online college. (SNHU does not offer PhD program)

My experience with mental health has influenced my beliefs in a sense where I actually grew closer to God and not further. As I discovered that I suffer from Anxiety, and God is my outlet. It’s influenced my relationships with my family and friends where I actually reach out to friends more and people from work. Only two of my family members actually understands me and don’t make it seem like I’m doing something wrong. It has influenced my career choice big time, I want to be a Psychologist now more than ever to help other Christians with understanding what mental health is and the importance of understanding where one’s anxiety or depression stems from and to also debunk the false information about mental health and certain disorders or symptoms of illness. Another thing is, it influenced me to actually pay attention what goes on in my mind, and my perception of what I think reality is vs what it really is for me. I noticed since last year when I started my relationship with God, maladaptive daydreaming wasn’t something I wanted anymore, I wanted to experience what the real world is like and not my escapism version of it that could’ve led into a serious Psychosis like schizophrenia where I probably would’ve never seen reality again that’s how dangerous my mind was becoming because of my anxiety. I said enough was enough and I prayed and fasted no food for three days February 1st-3rd 2023 and I never had maladaptive daydreaming ever again after that. God had completely erased it. Great I was happy but now I needed to learn how to navigate the reality of my at home situation with my parents. I couldn’t sound out the noise of their loud arguments and horrible things they would say to each other. So I ended up putting to much pressure on not going back to that world and in the meantime forming anxiety of whether will I ever be able to leave my parents situation. One day I had an panic attack and was rushed to the hospital and that changed everything for me. I went and got a job to be home less and it was great! But my outlet ending up being shopping which made me spend and obsessive amount of money on clothes that I didn’t even have room for and this has happened before it’s an addiction that I thought had left me; but it didn’t, so I left that job because it was then I realized that I can’t be around the thing I’m addicted to having. I went from (all the time) 600$ or more in two day I’d be down to 100$ and my family is low income. That job was to help everyone out, not spend on Mariah. My problem was I would base my happiness on things that were temporary. Now I base my joy in someone who is eternity. And that someone is God. Since I’ve been spending more time with God and confronting my anxiety and where it may stem from and telling Him my worries and concerns, although He knows, He still likes to hear me say it and take action. So knowing about mental health and understanding it through my Psychology major and through the Holy Bible as well, has helped Me, tremendously and I just feel so much more passionate about understanding this version of me and getting help.

I am Pro-Life God’s way. My Mother sadly had abortions, but she told me if she had the chance to not abort she would have, later she came to Christ, She found GOD, and changed and had three children and dedicated us back to Him. The abortions she had were due to traumatic experiences that no woman should face, sadly through rape and also through bad choices she had made through trusting others. Her family sadly wasn’t always there for her, only her Grandmother. Years later I can tell that she wished to have those kids as well but as God forgave her, she forgave herself. Changed her life around and centered it around God and changed. She stopped doing drugs and drinking completely and later on had three healthy babies who are now full grown adults. And as God blessed her with three last chances, she took the opportunity to give our lives back to Christ, as Hannah did with Samuel in the Book of Samuel within the Bible. But, we were really her last chances, her tubes had to tied because one completely gave out, I was a tubal pregnancy so she needed a C-Section, and I am the last child she ever had. She’s blessed that God gave her a chance and didn’t beat her up over her past life choices but instead helped her heal. And, she hopes those babies are either in heaven or that God gave them to women who were able. The actions and activities that take to promote the value and dignity of all human beings, especially the unborn is Spreading the Gospel of Jesus Christ and preaching God into peoples lives so that they can see how valuable and precious their souls are so precious that God sent His only begotten Son to save humanity from our sin. He was the atoning sacrifice to show us how precious lives are born and unborn. Pro-Life should be about God because God can save not politics, after all God is Life, Eternal Life through Jesus Christ. He is also about Love and forgiveness, not guilt, shame, and condemnation. I believe in Pro-Life being Pro God, and doing Life itself God’s in all aspects of the life He has given us, not only when it comes to pregnancy but even when we sin ourselves. Our sin can also affect a child’s life spiritually speaking which can lead them into walking into the deadly ideologies of this fallen world. Making sure we break all generational curses and Give our lives fully to God so that our children can have eternal life. Babies and little ones are precious to God, give birth to them AND lead them to Christ! Because honestly that child growing up just to go to hell is also murder, so if anyone’s pro-life I hope they’re Pro-God in the process and not because of biology or science proving that life is important, but pro-life because God is about life. So yes, the activities I will be doing is spreading awareness of Yahweh (God), Elohim, (God). So that people can know Life (God). God is the God of the impossible, He can help anyone he pleases, and that includes the unborn child and the parent.