Working towards a Masters in Social Work, specializing in clinical practice, to work as a LCSW Therapist in pediatric crisis intervention, my goal is to earn a Psy.D with an emphasis in Traumatic Stress Psychology. In addition to a pivotal internship at a residential treatment facility for juveniles and crisis counselor experience, my passion stems from past experiences with suicidal ideation, understanding the mind’s wondering depths and morass spirals; I strive to dive into the impacts of trauma.
From a young age, I was plagued by suicidal thoughts largely due to undiagnosed ADHD. As a very severe premature baby born at 25 weeks, I faced many adversities due to slower cognitive development. Throughout elementary and middle school, I felt like I was perpetually stuck in a tornado, as everyone else seemed to have sunny days: sitting for countless hours at the kitchen table frustrated and overwhelmed by homework and how much I didn’t know; crying out of frustration; my mom working endlessly with me on how to count money, tell time, and spell at later years than my peers; and together we fell asleep on the recliner the night before exams, memorizing songs and acronyms to help me through yet another test. Notwithstanding, I insisted on taking Honors and AP classes in high school to better myself, against the recommendations of teachers. Ultimately, I had no one to explain to me why I was always steps behind my peers. My grade school years were before the Response to Intervention was implemented, for neither teachers nor my parents knew how to intervene in my academic struggles.
Entering college at a known academically rigorous school, I was fully prepared to work five times harder than my peers to accomplish my dream career as a mental health therapist. The first week of freshman year, I had sought counseling for help as I learned to navigate these challenges and that is when I first heard “learning disability” being used in conjunction with my experiences.
Yes, I was tested in 9th grade for an IEP and one important thing was missing - no one asked me what my experiences were like. It included observations from teachers and guidance counselor, but no one stopped to ask me how I felt about being in school and being in classes. Words such as "appeared" and "seemed" were used, but I was a student who was taking honors classes and earning great grades. Since Kindergarten, I mastered looking like I understood and was engaged. After the ADHD and Dyscalculia diagnosis, I realized that I was not worth less or had less to contribute. My experience of falling through the cracks of the system has informed my passion for mental health social work.
I fell through the cracks of the system and no one heard me screaming.
These experiences fuel my desire to be an active part in children’s journeys to self-actualization and in providing a team of professionals who do not let them slip through the cracks the way I did.
Light has been gradually shown on the dire need for crisis intervention, specifically in suicide prevention, following the pandemic. As a prospective pediatric therapist, I aspire to be a part of that growth in awareness and sense of urgency, contributing to a safer, more efficient fulcrum to service accessibility and effective, evidence-based practices.
Despite the availability for personal development through advances in inclusivity and public support, this generation of American youth lacks navigation in life challenges. The youth are inevitably engulfed with the negativity of this world - they witness humanity splitting at the seam, as society struggles tirelessly to patch up the laceration. From social media platforms to the ridicule this generation receives, the suicide epidemic is ceaseless. I desperately desire to contribute to a society where youth have tools to help them deal with their less-than-ideal circumstances, learning how to overcome, and above all, thrive.
For my Field Placement experience, I interned with George Junior Republic. This facility treats juvenile, delinquent males with individualized rehabilitative services, wrap-around services, education, and residential stability. Working with this at-risk population requires strong skill sets in de-escalation, crisis intervention, manual restraint training, trauma-informed care, therapeutic intervention, and behavioral health management. The most valuable service I provided them was the ability to feel safe and provide them with space to let down their guards to heal. These struggles do not happen in a vacuum, and healing cannot happen without the youth feeling safe - this population has had minimal experiences with safety. This field experience is monumental in confirming my passion in the social work field and shows me each day that crisis intervention is pivotal in our nation’s fight against pediatric suicide.
Giving back to communities is invariably meaningful to me. Currently, I am a part of the success and vibrancy my community sees. With 1000+ volunteer hours, the opportunity that continues to impact me the most is my work as a Volunteer Crisis Text Line Counselor. In 2021, I completed my 30-hour training to become a Counselor for this nonprofit, 24/7 national text line, providing support and resources to those in crisis. As a Level 5 Crisis Counselor, I have supported over 135 individuals with over 300 hours logged, by taking daytime and late night through early morning shifts. Our jobs are to directly intervene bringing "texters" from hot moments to cooler calms through risk assessing, exploring the crisis, identifying goals, discovering next steps, and creating safety plans. Through this work, I continue to help those who are moments away from suicide, be shown the hope they ultimately felt was lost. This vocational work not only influences the lives of others but informs my role as a steward of community for the good as a Nation. As one texter shared with me, "I'll forever be grateful for what you did tonight - you saved my life."
My goal as a social worker is simply to help one soul at a time.