Art is so profound. To explain how much I love it is an understatement. I have always loved to draw and paint. I have found my best moments and my worst moments when I am painting or drawing. It heals me and helps me see who I am and can be. Going on my patio and painting is my stress releaser. My first moments in finding my love for art was on my patio with an easel my aunt gifted me (picture at the end), I must have been 8 years old. My mom took a picture of me in my cute pink outfit and I was painting some obscure image with flowers. It was my first true moment where I felt at ease and in my element. Art is something I think everyone should revel in. Art is my place to be mindful of myself, my thoughts and emotions. I have found solace and peace when I paint and draw. Although I can be very critical of myself and this can cause me stress; it is still my most zen-ful moment. Playing music to help this creative side of me is crucial to my creativity. Over the years I have changed in many ways and my art has changed. It is difficult to explain. However when I look back at my art, I see the growth and all the changes I have taken in my life personally, mentally, and emotionally. My art inspirations are Georgia O’keefe and Van gogh. O'keefe went blind at a very young age and was still able to see what she was painting, she also was a woman who went against the male dominated world of art. This in itself gives me courage to continue my passion. That is just an amazing feat. I have been drawn to artists who have endured so much pain. Van Gogh is another one of my favorites but mostly due to the multiple mediums and styles he used in his work. With the fact that my mom has paid a type of homage to Frida Kahlo art everywhere in our home, it was no doubt that one of my sisters or myself would've had an artistic eye. My mom has always talked to me about Frida’s life and the unbearable physical pain she had due to her accident. It’s inspiring. It’s sad at the same time. People who suffer can create such beautiful things. I connect. The changes that I see in my paintings definitely help me to get my thoughts out on paper. As I look at the art that I have submitted for this admission, I realize that some of my art contains my personal struggles. It saddens me but I realized how important it is to see the changes that have taken place, it means I have survived that moment. I progressed into a new person with every art that I create. Taking Art 2 in high school has shown me different techniques that I am now applying in my art; like pointillism. This type of art is fascinating. It is difficult, you have to have a lot of patience since it requires so many dots; thousands actually to complete a project. However when you look at the finished piece, you are like “wow” I did that. It's satisfying.

Social Issues are really important. Awareness is even more important. Being a young person in this changing world has definitely brought about many difficult thoughts and crucial social outlook. I have learned to not be afraid to voice my opinion on social media about things I feel I am right about. The Palestinian War in my opinion is completely awful and is a genocide on the people. I don't agree with it and I am not afraid to voice my social opinion. I am a supporter of LGPTQ-Trans rights and believe all people deserve a platform and shouldn't be silenced. I an vocal amongst my friends and luckily my circle of friends have the same opinion. So we have great conversations about social injustices. I believe our generation needs to be vocal about all these social issues since they will impact us now and definitely in the future. They will impact our children's children. I see how ROE v. Wade affected my grandmothers generation and the impact it had on my mothers generation (GEN X) only to have it reversed in our generation. The impact it had mentally on my mothers generation was sadly impactful. She was upset beyond belief and at first I didn't understand that. Now that I am getting older and understand how so many social injustice affect our people it is sad that these changes are affecting so many people unfairly. I have a social media platform and I am in constantly vocalizing my opinions and will continue to do so. There is nothing wrong showing people good sites that they can use to inform themselves about social issues. Most people are ill informed and its easier to put the right information out there for people to take the time to see and hear. I think in this day and age, social media is the right tool to get this information out. We don't read like in my mothers generation. People rely on the media to give the right information but sometimes this information that is out isn't always right. Its based on very popular views and not necessarily the right ones. So finding the correct sources with legit information is strikingly important. So I have vowed to voice my opinion even if it may upset family and friends. Life is short. Might as well help to leave the world a better place for each generation that passes.

The arts have been present in my life since I was a child. My mother surrounded my home walls with many Frida Kahlo Art, Diego Rivera Art, Simon Silva art and various cultural artifacts. So being surrounded by art gave me the opportunity to to respect it and to realize that it plays an important role in my life. Art isn’t just about creating a beautiful space. It’s to create thoughts about why the artist painted an image. It’s the use of colors and questioning why those colors. As I got older I realized that drawing and animation would then be my favorite thing to draw. I began to create my own style of cartoon and create various little characters. I did use my characters to show whatever emotions I was feeling during my various years in high school, which was honestly a lot of difficult emotions to deal with. It was a way to cope and express myself. I found it healing and I have continued to draw my characters in college. I find it therapeutic. My adversity is a personal journey of healing. Life has taught me that you can sink into a dark hole and feel like there is no hope. However seeing a spark of light of love can heal the saddest and darkest fears. This light was my family. . Throughout my life I have had various influences that impacted my decision to pursue a career in art. It seems pretty obvious that it began early in my life that it was meant for me. Waking up to Frida Kahlo was a pretty intense experience, yet very normal. I have always been a creative person and continue to be just that. I love bringing color and design to my life. It brings out the beauty of everything around me. Now that I am in College at Cal Poly Humboldt, my environment has played a huge factor in my desire to continue to study arts. Being surrounded by so much beauty has really made me realize that there is so much beauty in this world. I can see how Georgia O’Keefe painted her world with so much love. She is another of my favorite artists and the detail she brings about the simplest things, like a flower, or a big piece like a landscape is inspiring. I want to learn new ways of creating art, not just painting, I want to learn different modalities of art. Currently I am taking a Course which will teach me how to make stamps. Learning to use different types of tools that do not include just a brush or a pencil is exciting. I want to pursue different types of art and I am hoping to achieve this at Humboldt.

The arts have been present in my life since I was a child. My mother surrounded my home walls with many Frida Kahlo Art, Diego Rivera Art, Simon SIlva art and various cultural artifacts. So being surrounded by art gave me the opportunity to to respect it and to realize that it plays an important role in my life. Art isn’t just about creating a beautiful space. It’s to create thoughts about why the artist painted an image. It’s the use of colors and questioning why those colors. As I got older I realized that drawing and animation would then be my favorite thing to draw. I began to create my own style of cartoon and create various little characters. I did use my characters to show whatever emotions I was feeling during my various years in high school, which was honestly a lot of difficult emotions to deal with. It was a way to cope and express myself. I found it healing and I have continued to draw my characters in college. I find it therapeutic. My adversity is a personal journey of healing. Life has taught me that you can sink into a dark hole and feel like there is no hope. However seeing a spark of light of love can heal the saddest and darkest fears. This light was my family. Throughout my life I have had various influences that impacted my decision to pursue a career in art. It seems pretty obvious that it began early in my life that it was meant for me. Waking up to Frida Kahlo was a pretty intense experience, yet very normal. I have always been a creative person and continue to be just that. I love bringing color and design to my life. It brings out the beauty of everything around me. Now that I am in College at Cal Poly Humboldt, my environment has played a huge factor in my desire to continue to study arts. Being surrounded by so much beauty has really made me realize that there is so much beauty in this world. I can see how Georgia O’Keefe painted her world with so much love. She is another of my favorite artists and the detail she brings about the simplest things, like a flower, or a big piece like a landscape is inspiring. I want to learn new ways of creating art, not just painting, I want to learn different modalities of art. Currently I am taking a Course which will teach me how to make stamps. Learning to use different types of tools that do not include just a brush or a pencil is exciting. I want to pursue different types of art and I am hoping to achieve this at Humboldt. As I have taken the first two art classes, I have come to realize that having a little bit of spending money on my supplies is apparent. My mom is currently the only one working, she’s a teacher. My dad was in a terrible work accident and is still on permanent disability. Asking my mom for money is difficult but she always finds a way to give me what I need. I would really appreciate any help I could get.

My adversity is a personal journey of healing. Life has taught me that you can sink into a dark hole and feel like there is no hope. However seeing a spark of light of love can heal the saddest and darkest fears. This light was my family. As I got older I never thought I would have to deal with mental health issues. Growing up in a social media world really affected me and my view of myself. It brought about a lot of self hatred and brought my world down. There was some help in my life but I didn't think of it as my therapy. This was art. I found peace in drawing and animation , but never thought that it would help me. However it has become my main source of therapy. I began to create my own style of cartoon and create various little characters. I did use my characters to show whatever emotions I was feeling during my various years in high school, which was honestly a lot of difficult emotions to deal with. It was a way to cope and express myself. I found it healing and I have continued to draw my characters in college. I find it therapeutic. I needed this therapy because I was dealing with various issues while in high school such as dysmorphia and then gender dysmorphia. Understanding myself and who I am has been a struggle that took me to some dark places. It led me to self harm and as a consequence my family discovered my pain. They did everything they could to help me. I participated in a Program through Kaiser called IOP and they did everything they could to help the start of my healing journey. They helped me communicate with my parents about my pain and I learned a way to channel my pain into a safer form of healing. Since that course I have managed to stop self harm. I suffered later that year in the loss of my grandfather who had been the biggest supporter of my art journey aside from my mother. Losing him causes me to enter a world of grief. I never knew the safe way to deal with my pain so this was a difficult time in my life. I have learned to grieve without self harm and it has been very tough. But I have managed to grieve safely. It's a rough road but I feel I have begun to overcome this adversity to achieve my goals and dreams to go into the art world. My family has been my biggest support system and I have realized that this journey on my life's path is not a solo journey but having loyal family and friends and understanding that I am not alone has been my saving grace. Everyday I am healing and realizing that I am a good person and I only owe myself my love and strength. The world has opened it's heart to me at Cal Poly Humboldt and it has surrounded with people that are on similar mental health journeys and it really provides me with a sense of comfort and a realization that I am not alone or different for that matter.

I attribute my personal success to my personal adversity. This continued success is because of it. My adversity is a personal journey of healing. Life has taught me that you can sink into a dark hole and feel like there is no hope. However seeing a spark of light of love can heal the saddest and darkest fears. This light was my family. As I got older I never thought I would have to deal with mental health issues. Growing up in a social media world really affected me and my view of myself. It brought about a lot of self hatred and brought my world down. There was some help in my life but I didn't think of it as my therapy. This was art. I found peace in drawing and animation , but never thought that it would help me. However it has become my main source of therapy. I began to create my own style of cartoon and create various little characters. I did use my characters to show whatever emotions I was feeling during my various years in high school, which was honestly a lot of difficult emotions to deal with. It was a way to cope and express myself. I found it healing and I have continued to draw my characters in college. I find it therapeutic. I needed this therapy because I was dealing with various issues while in high school such as dysmorphia and then gender dysmorphia. Understanding myself and who I am has been a struggle that took me to some dark places. It led me to self harm and as a consequence my family discovered my pain. They did everything they could to help me. I participated in a Program through Kaiser called IOP and they did everything they could to help the start of my healing journey. They helped me communicate with my parents about my pain and I learned a way to channel my pain into a safer form of healing. Since that course I have managed to stop self harm. I suffered later that year in the loss of my grandfather who had been the biggest supporter of my art journey aside from my mother. Losing him causes me to enter a world of grief. I never knew the safe way to deal with my pain so this was a difficult time in my life. I have learned to grieve without self harm and it has been very tough. But I have managed to grieve safely. It's a rough road but I feel I have begun to overcome this adversity to achieve my goals and dreams to go into the art world. My family has been my biggest support system and I have realized that this journey on my life's path is not a solo journey but having loyal family and friends and understanding that I am not alone has been my saving grace. I feel that success comes in many forms. However at this point in my life success to me is have good mental health so I can complete my academic journey in studio art.

The arts have been present in my life since I was a child. My mother surrounded my home walls with many Frida Kahlo Art, Diego Rivera Art, Simon SIlva art and various cultural artifacts. So being surrounded by art gave me the opportunity to to respect it and to realize that it plays an important role in my life. Art isn’t just about creating a beautiful space. It’s to create thoughts about why the artist painted an image. It’s the use of colors and questioning why those colors. As I got older I realized that drawing and animation would then be my favorite thing to draw. I began to create my own style of cartoon and create various little characters. I did use my characters to show whatever emotions I was feeling during my various years in high school, which was honestly a lot of difficult emotions to deal with. It was a way to cope and express myself. I found it healing and I have continued to draw my characters in college. I find it therapeutic. My adversity is a personal journey of healing. Life has taught me that you can sink into a dark hole and feel like there is no hope. However seeing a spark of light of love can heal the saddest and darkest fears. This light was my family. When I entered high school I never thought I would have to deal with mental health issues. Growing up in a social media world really affected me and my view of myself. It brought about a lot of self hatred and brought my world down. There was some help in my life but I didn't think of it as my therapy. This was art. I found peace in drawing and animation, but never thought that it would help me. Today it has become my main source of therapy in my life. Theater was a new artistic field I began to try. Specially the art set design because what I was best at. I learned that theater isn't just acting but creating a set background can really influence the feeling of a musical or production. This became a new influence in my life. I have come to realize that art delves into many different forms. Throughout my life I have had various influences that impacted my decision to pursue a career in art. It seems pretty obvious that it began early in my life that it was meant for me. Waking up to Frida Kahlo was a pretty intense experience, yet very normal. I have always been a creative person and continue to be just that. I love bringing color and design to my life. It brings out the beauty of everything around me. I have also come to learn that art isn't just painting, but to create a set design for a theater production is an amazing and fun way of using art. It is definitely a possible future in art but in movies or theater production.

The arts have been present in my life since I was a child. My mother surrounded my home walls with many Frida Kahlo Art, Diego Rivera Art, Simon Silva art and various cultural artifacts. So being surrounded by art gave me the opportunity to to respect it and to realize that it plays an important role in my life. Art isn’t just about creating a beautiful space. It’s to create thoughts about why the artist painted an image. It’s the use of colors and questioning why those colors. I began to create my own style of cartoon and create various little characters. I did use my characters to show whatever emotions I was feeling during my various years in high school, which was honestly a lot of difficult emotions to deal with. It was a way to cope and express myself. I found it healing and I have continued to draw my characters in college. I find it therapeutic. I feel art is simply beautiful and without it is just unimageable. So I feel more artist in the world will make the world a much better place. Sounds super naïve but I honestly believe this with all my being. We have too many displeasing things in the world. Art has always been my saving grace so why can't it be the worlds. Art can create not just a beautiful but can create a thought provoking image which can lend to so many ideas. It is everywhere. In the games we play online, in our textbooks, and in the doodles we create on our scrapbooks. The artist Banksy does this in a very unique way. He makes people come out of into the world and analyze his art. He makes people think. It's a great way to bring art to the world. He is a definite unique artist that I admire. Yet he is still unknown to the world. So fascinating. It's this type of art that makes the world turn heads. I am still developing my art and don't quite know where it will take me but I do feel it is in my future. There is so much influence within the art field. So much can be done. But I do know I will make art and I will make people think about my creations one day. This excites me and gives me hope in my life and my future goals.

The arts have been present in my life since I was a child. My mother surrounded my home walls with many Frida Kahlo Art, Diego Rivera Art, Simon SIlva art and various cultural artifacts. So being surrounded by art gave me the opportunity to to respect it and to realize that it plays an important role in my life. Art isn’t just about creating a beautiful space. It’s to create thoughts about why the artist painted an image. It’s the use of colors and questioning why those colors. My Aunt, who is an art teacher at a private high school, gave me my first easel. So I definitely used it to paint what I saw. I spent a lot of time outside my patio painting my pets, my yard, birds, and various bugs I would see. My family did a big part in channeling what creative aspect my siblings had in our lives. So I have received lots of art gifts since I was child. Paint sets, and canvas was a typical gift I would receive since I was very young. So this influence was a big precursor to my future education in the Arts. As I got older I realized that drawing and animation would then be my favorite thing to draw. I began to create my own style of cartoon and create various little characters. I did use my characters to show whatever emotions I was feeling during my various years in high school, which was honestly a lot of difficult emotions to deal with. It was a way to cope and express myself. I found it healing and I have continued to draw my characters in college. I find it therapeutic. I have had various influences that impacted my decision to pursue a career in art. It seems pretty obvious that it began early in my life that it was meant for me. Waking up to Frida Kahlo was a pretty intense experience, yet very normal. I have always been a creative person and continue to be just that. I love bringing color and design to my life. It brings out the beauty of everything around me. Now that I am in College at Cal Poly Humboldt, my environment has played a huge factor in my desire to continue to study arts. Being surrounded by so much beauty has really made me realize that there is so much beauty in this world. I can see how Georgia O’Keefe painted her world with so much love. She is another of my favorite artists and the detail she brings about the simplest things, like a flower, or a big piece like a landscape is inspiring. I want to learn new ways of creating art, not just painting, i want to learn different modalities of art. Currently I am taking a Course which will teach me how to make stamps. Learning to use different types of tools that do not include just a brush or a pencil is exciting. I want to pursue different types of art and I am hoping to achieve this at Humboldt. This scholarship could help me with some of my supplies that are expensive and would give my family a little financial support. Depending on financial aid primarily loans I know will haunt me later but this little help right now could give me a little bit of freedom from the loans.

My adversity is a personal journey of healing. Life has taught me that you can sink into a dark hole and feel like there is no hope. However seeing a spark of light of love can heal the saddest and darkest fears. This light was my family. As I got older I never thought I would have to deal with mental health issues. Growing up in a social media world really affected me and my view of myself. It brought about a lot of self hatred and brought my world down. There was some help in my life but I didn't think of it as my therapy. This was art. I found peace in drawing and animation , but never thought that it would help me. However it has become my main source of therapy. I began to create my own style of cartoon and create various little characters. I did use my characters to show whatever emotions I was feeling during my various years in high school, which was honestly a lot of difficult emotions to deal with. It was a way to cope and express myself. I found it healing and I have continued to draw my characters in college. I find it therapeutic. I needed this therapy because I was dealing with various issues while in high school such as dysmorphia and then gender dysmorphia. Understanding myself and who I am has been a struggle that took me to some dark places. It led me to self harm and as a consequence my family discovered my pain. They did everything they could to help me. I participated in a Program through Kaiser called IOP and they did everything they could to help the start of my healing journey. They helped me communicate with my parents about my pain and I learned a way to channel my pain into a safer form of healing. Since that course I have managed to stop self harm. I suffered later that year in the loss of my grandfather who had been the biggest supporter of my art journey aside from my mother. Losing him causes me to enter a world of grief. I never knew the safe way to deal with my pain so this was a difficult time in my life. I have learned to grieve without self harm and it has been very tough. But I have managed to grieve safely. It's a rough road but I feel I have begun to overcome this adversity to achieve my goals and dreams to go into the art world. My family has been my biggest support system and I have realized that this journey on my life's path is not a solo journey but having loyal family and friends and understanding that I am not alone has been my saving grace.

The arts have been present in my life since I was a child. My mother surrounded my home walls with many Frida Kahlo Art, Diego Rivera Art, Simon SIlva art and various cultural artifacts. So being surrounded by art gave me the opportunity to to respect it and to realize that it plays an important role in my life. Art isn’t just about creating a beautiful space. It’s to create thoughts about why the artist painted an image. It’s the use of colors and questioning why those colors. My Aunt, who is an art teacher at a private high school, gave me my first easel. So I definitely used it to paint what I saw. I spent a lot of time outside my patio painting my pets, my yard, birds, and various bugs I would see. My family did a big part in channeling what creative aspect my siblings had in our lives. So I have received lots of art gifts since I was child. Paint sets, and canvas was a typical gift I would receive since I was very young. So this influence was a big precursor to my future education in the Arts. As I got older I realized that drawing and animation would then be my favorite thing to draw. I began to create my own style of cartoon and create various little characters. I did use my characters to show whatever emotions I was feeling during my various years in high school, which was honestly a lot of difficult emotions to deal with. It was a way to cope and express myself. I found it healing and I have continued to draw my characters in college. I find it therapeutic. I have had various influences that impacted my decision to pursue a career in art. It seems pretty obvious that it began early in my life that it was meant for me. Waking up to Frida Kahlo was a pretty intense experience, yet very normal. I have always been a creative person and continue to be just that. I love bringing color and design to my life. It brings out the beauty of everything around me. Now that I am in College at Cal Poly Humboldt, my environment has played a huge factor in my desire to continue to study arts. Being surrounded by so much beauty has really made me realize that there is so much beauty in this world. I can see how Georgia O’Keefe painted her world with so much love. She is another of my favorite artists and the detail she brings about the simplest things, like a flower, or a big piece like a landscape is inspiring. I want to learn new ways of creating art, not just painting, i want to learn different modalities of art. Currently I am taking a Course which will teach me how to make stamps. Learning to use different types of tools that do not include just a brush or a pencil is exciting. I want to pursue different types of art and I am hoping to achieve this at Humboldt.

I decided to attend Cal Poly Humboldt for the the beautiful campus. The redwoods and the forest really call to me and my soul. Literally every day that I step out of my dorm room it is a beautiful sight. Walking out is like a Georgia O'Keefe painting in 5D. I can get lost for hours looking at the beautiful sights that surround me. I love to see the various colors that are created during the golden hour. Sunsets are my favorite. Looking at hour the redwoods slowly let in light through the gaps of the trees and branches create a image that is breathtaking. So basically I see beauty all around me. Animals are another sight that creates beautiful colors and wonderment. I especially like to look closely at bugs like preying mantis or simple little creatures that have so much beauty. They share the world I walk on, so I appreciate them. I feel everything has beauty and definitely is a source of inspiration for me as an artist. I use what's around me to create my art. However sometimes I see the beauty in my mind and use the colors that I have experienced in my drawings.