I am a 49 yr old divorced women. I have 2 grown boys and I decided to go collage. I have been out of high school since 1991. I quit school when I was 16 years old. I got married several years later and then had children. Life has been hard and I have made some bad choices. I wanted to be able to get a good job if I ever needed to. I went to get my GED in 2005 and surprisingly I past. Several years later, I found myself in a dark place in life. I started using drugs and was addicted. I tried to commit suicide and a few months later in 2014 I lost my mom. That was hard. That kind of pain changes a person. Several months later I lost my family and husband of 26 years. I lost who I was . My identity was gone. Now, in 2023, I have decided to take all the bad and turn it to good.. I decided to go to collage and become a counselor. I hope I can be another person's light in the dark. I want to be a bright light that someone else can use as a beacon to find their way out. If I can touch one person's life, give someone a little hope then, I think all the bad things I have gone through would be more then worth it all. I want to be someone's serenity and hope. I want to make a difference in life and help everyone I can. I think everyone deserves to feel love and be happy. I think everyone should know what it feel's like to be loved, even the animals. I'm not good at alor of things and I have failed at life. I would love to be someone my 2 boy's are proud of. I also want people to be educated on mental illness and substance abuse. I hope I can get the help someone is needing. I think everyone should be educated on both subjects. It would make a big difference in someone's life. It would have made a bid one in mine. I'm not where I want to be in life yet but for the first time in my life I can honestly say, finally, I'm heading in the right direction. My mom would be so proud of me. I hope my boy's are. I hope they smile when they hear my name. I want to proud of myself instead of disappointment for once.