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My name is Angela, I'm currently a senior in high school (Class of 2025) and my future outlook is to become the first physician in my family.
My dream school is UT Austin, where I aim to earn a Bachelor's of Science in Biology. I'm graduating high school with an associate's degree, and with the two years I've saved, I plan to take two gap years after college to get EMT-B and EMT-P certified and to study for the MCAT. My ultimate goal is to become an Emergency Medicine physician.
I want to be a physician to save lives. I know that sounds generic, but I believe families deserve to see a friendly and empathetic face when they first enter the hospital and again when they leave. I want to be the one who makes someone's day by telling them their loved one made it, and I also want to be the empathetic support patients can rely on in the event of bad news. By achieving a good education, I believe I can bring smiles to people's faces in a grim place like the emergency room and make my family proud by being the first to become a doctor, which is the highest honor in my family.
Education
Montwood High School
High SchoolEl Paso Community College
Associate's degree programMajors:
- Multi/Interdisciplinary Studies, Other
Miscellaneous
Desired degree level:
Bachelor's degree program
Majors of interest:
- Biological and Biomedical Sciences, Other
Career
Dream career field:
Hospital & Health Care
Dream career goals:
Attending Physician in Emergency Medicine
Public services
Public Service (Politics)
Rams Early College — Parliamentarian/Class Representative2023 – 2024Public Service (Politics)
Rams Early College — President2024 – PresentPublic Service (Politics)
National Technical Honor Society — President2024 – Present
Hilliard L. "Tack" Gibbs Jr. Memorial Scholarship
My name is Angela, and I am currently a senior in high school. My dream is to attend UT Austin and earn a Bachelor of Science in Biology. By the time I graduate high school, I will also have earned an associate's degree, giving me a head start on my college education. With the two years I’ve saved, I plan to take two gap years after college to become EMT-B and EMT-P certified and to study for the MCAT. My ultimate goal is to become an Emergency Medicine physician.
My passion for becoming a physician stems from a deep desire to save lives and to provide comfort and reassurance to families during some of their most challenging times. I believe that when families first enter the hospital, and when they leave, they deserve to see a friendly and empathetic face. I want to be the one to make someone's day by telling them their loved one made it, and I also want to be the empathetic support patients can rely on in the event of bad news. By achieving a good education, I believe I can bring smiles to people's faces in a grim place like the emergency room.
What interests me about STEM is its capacity to reach people through science. My decision to pursue further education in STEM is driven by my desire to have a positive impact on the medical field, particularly in emergency medicine. As a child, I had frequent run-ins with the emergency room due to various health scares within my family. I vividly remember the relief and joy on my worried family members' faces when doctors or surgeons delivered good news. The profound impact of these moments left a lasting impression on me, and I aspire to be the one providing that same relief and reassurance to other families.
In addition to my academic pursuits, I have taken on numerous leadership roles and have been actively involved in extracurricular activities. I hold double president positions in the National Technical Honor Society and the Early College program. As a competitor and officer of HOSA, I participate in various competitions and events that enhance my medical knowledge and skills. I am also challenging national certifications in phlebotomy, first aid, and EKG, further solidifying my commitment to the medical field.
Remarkably, I am on track to receive my associate's degree this December, which means I will graduate from college before high school. This accomplishment is a testament to my dedication and determination to succeed in my chosen field. I am also ranked 14th out of 572 students in my class, reflecting my academic excellence and commitment to my studies.
My goal as an emergency medicine physician is to bridge the gap between medical professionals and minority communities, particularly the Vietnamese community. By providing culturally sensitive care and effective communication, I aim to make the emergency room a less intimidating place for patients. I believe that a compassionate and understanding physician can make a significant difference in the lives of patients and their families, offering not only medical care but also emotional support during difficult times.
This scholarship will help me achieve my goals by alleviating the financial burden associated with higher education, allowing me to focus on my studies and extracurricular activities without the constant worry of financial strain. It will provide me with the resources necessary to continue my education and ultimately pursue a career in medicine. Your support will bring me one step closer to making a meaningful impact in the medical field and in the lives of those I will serve.
Harry B. Anderson Scholarship
My name is Angela, and I am currently a senior in high school. My dream is to attend UT Austin and earn a Bachelor of Science in Biology. By the time I graduate high school, I will also have earned an associate's degree, giving me a head start on my college education. With the two years I’ve saved, I plan to take two gap years after college to become EMT-B and EMT-P certified and to study for the MCAT. My ultimate goal is to become an Emergency Medicine physician.
My passion for becoming a physician stems from a deep desire to save lives and to provide comfort and reassurance to families during some of their most challenging times. I believe that when families first enter the hospital, and when they leave, they deserve to see a friendly and empathetic face. I want to be the one to make someone's day by telling them their loved one made it, and I also want to be the empathetic support patients can rely on in the event of bad news. By achieving a good education, I believe I can bring smiles to people's faces in a grim place like the emergency room and make my family proud by being the first to become a doctor, which is the highest honor in my family.
What interests me about STEM is its capacity to reach people through science. My decision to pursue further education in STEM is driven by my desire to have a positive impact on the medical field, particularly in emergency medicine. As a child, I had frequent run-ins with the emergency room due to various health scares within my family. I vividly remember the relief and joy on my worried family members' faces when doctors or surgeons delivered good news. The profound impact of these moments left a lasting impression on me, and I aspire to be the one providing that same relief and reassurance to other families.
In addition to my academic pursuits, I have taken on numerous leadership roles and have been actively involved in extracurricular activities. I hold double president positions in the National Technical Honor Society and the Early College program. As a competitor and officer of HOSA (Health Occupations Students of America), I participate in various competitions and events that enhance my medical knowledge and skills. I am also challenging national certifications in phlebotomy, first aid, and EKG, further solidifying my commitment to the medical field.
Remarkably, I am on track to receive my associate's degree this December, which means I will graduate from college before high school. This accomplishment is a testament to my dedication and determination to succeed in my chosen field. I am also ranked 14th out of 572 students in my class, reflecting my academic excellence and commitment to my studies.
My goal as an emergency medicine physician is to bridge the gap between medical professionals and minority communities, particularly the Vietnamese community. By providing culturally sensitive care and effective communication, I aim to make the emergency room a less intimidating place for patients. I believe that a compassionate and understanding physician can make a significant difference in the lives of patients and their families, offering not only medical care but also emotional support during difficult times.
In conclusion, I believe that through my education and future career as a physician, I hope to provide comfort, safety, and reassurance to those in need, particularly minorities and women. This scholarship will support me in achieving my goals and allow me to continue my journey toward making a difference in the lives of others.
Connie Konatsotis Scholarship
My name is Angela, and I am currently a senior in high school with aspirations of becoming an emergency medicine physician. My academic journey and personal experiences have profoundly shaped my desire to make a meaningful impact in the world through my education. I plan to attend UT Austin and graduate with a Bachelor's of Science in Biology. Through my education, I hope to provide comfort and safety to minorities, particularly within the Vietnamese community and among women. As a bilingual physician, I will be able to translate for patients and offer a friendly, reassuring presence in the emergency room, helping to alleviate some of the fear and anxiety that often accompany medical emergencies.
What interests me most about STEM is the ability to reach and help people through science. My decision to further my education in STEM, particularly in the medical field, stems from my childhood experiences. I frequently found myself in emergency rooms, either for my own health issues or those of my relatives. Watching the faces of my worried family members light up in relief when doctors or surgeons delivered good news was an unforgettable experience. The unmatched joy and relief knowing that a loved one would make it out alive inspired me to pursue a career in emergency medicine. I want to be the one to bring that same relief to other families, ensuring that their loved ones receive the care and support they need during critical times.
Throughout my high school career, I have worked hard to achieve my goals and have taken on numerous leadership roles. I hold double president positions in the National Technical Honor Society and the Early College program. Additionally, I am a competitor and officer of HOSA (Health Occupations Students of America), where I actively participate in various competitions and events that enhance my medical knowledge and skills. I am also challenging national certifications in phlebotomy, first aid, and EKG, further solidifying my commitment to the medical field.
Remarkably, I am on track to receive my associate's degree this December, allowing me to graduate from college before high school. This accomplishment is a testament to my dedication and determination to succeed in my chosen field. I am ranked 14th out of 572 students in my class, reflecting my academic excellence and commitment to my studies.
My goal as an emergency medicine physician is to bridge the gap between medical professionals and minority communities, particularly the Vietnamese community. By providing culturally sensitive care and effective communication, I aim to make the emergency room a less intimidating place for patients. I believe that a compassionate and understanding physician can make a significant difference in the lives of patients and their families, offering not only medical care but also emotional support during difficult times.
In conclusion, my passion for STEM and the medical field, coupled with my personal experiences and leadership roles, have prepared me to make a meaningful impact on the world. Through my education and future career as an emergency medicine physician, I hope to provide comfort, safety, and reassurance to those in need, particularly minorities and women. This scholarship will support me in achieving my goals and allow me to continue my journey toward making a difference in the lives of others. Thank you for considering my application.
Simon Strong Scholarship
Everyone faces adversity in their life. My journey has been particularly marked by the challenges of racism and gender disparity. Growing up in California as a non-English speaking Vietnamese girl, I experienced daily instances of prejudice. Classmates would mock my broken English and misidentify my ethnicity, calling me Korean or Chinese instead of Vietnamese. These constant remarks made me dread school and left me feeling isolated and misunderstood. Speaking Vietnamese with my family, which should have been a source of comfort, became another reason for ridicule. This harsh environment made me hate school, a place meant for learning and growth.
The turning point in my life came when my family moved to Texas. I was at an age where I was beginning to develop a thicker skin, and El Paso’s diverse community provided a more accepting environment. This change allowed me to embrace my identity and start loving myself for who I am. However, my struggles did not end there. In my sophomore year of high school, I ran for the position of president against a male candidate. Despite my extensive involvement in extracurricular activities like the National Technical Honor Society, Early College, and HOSA, and maintaining a weighted GPA higher than 4.0, I lost the election. I suspect that my opponent’s male charm played a significant role in his victory. Additionally, collaborating with male classmates often resulted in them mansplaining or taking credit for our joint efforts, implying that their contributions were superior simply because they were male.
These experiences have fueled my determination to prove that women, especially women of color like myself, are capable of holding positions of power and excelling on their own merits. Through these adversities, I learned to grow a thicker skin and to stand my ground. I also learned to love myself for who I am, embracing my identity and background. These challenges have shaped me into a resilient individual, determined to succeed despite the obstacles in my path.
If I were to offer advice to someone facing similar circumstances, I would emphasize the importance of resilience and self-belief. Stay resilient and never give up. You never know what will happen unless you stick it out the whole way through. Stand your ground and believe in your abilities, regardless of what others may say or think. It is essential to remember that adversity can be a powerful catalyst for growth and self-discovery.
Throughout my academic journey, I have worked hard to achieve my goals. I hold double president positions in the National Technical Honor Society and the Early College program. I am also a competitor and officer of HOSA, and I am working towards national certifications in phlebotomy, first aid, and EKG. Remarkably, I will receive my associate's degree this December, graduating from college before high school, and I am ranked 14th out of 572 students in my class. These accomplishments are a testament to my dedication and determination to overcome adversity and succeed.
In conclusion, the adversities I have faced have significantly shaped my educational journey and personal growth. They have taught me the importance of resilience, self-belief, and the power of embracing one’s identity. I hope that my story can inspire others facing similar challenges to stay strong, stand their ground, and never give up on their dreams. With determination and perseverance, we can all overcome adversity and achieve greatness.
Powering The Future - Whiddon Memorial Scholarship
My journey through education has been shaped significantly by the adversities I have faced, particularly racism and gender disparity. Growing up as a non-English speaking Vietnamese girl in California, I experienced daily challenges at school. Classmates would mock my broken English and misidentify my ethnicity, labeling me as Korean or Chinese. This constant barrage of remarks made me dread going to school and caused me to hate an environment that should have been nurturing. However, a move to Texas changed my outlook. By then, I had developed thicker skin, and El Paso’s diverse environment allowed me to embrace my identity and love myself for who I am.
Gender disparity has also been a notable hurdle. In my sophomore year of high school, I ran for the position of president against a male candidate. Despite my involvement in numerous extracurricular activities like the National Technical Honor Society, Early College, and HOSA, and maintaining a weighted GPA higher than 4.0, I lost the election. I suspect my opponent's male charm played a role. Additionally, collaborating on projects with male classmates often resulted in them mansplaining or taking credit for the work, implying that their male brains were superior. These experiences have fueled my desire to prove that women, especially women of color like myself, are capable of holding positions of power and excelling on their own merits.
I am passionate about pursuing a degree in STEM because I aspire to become an emergency medicine physician and make a significant impact in the medical field. My motivation stems from frequent visits to the emergency room during my childhood due to various health scares within my family. Witnessing the relief on my family’s faces when doctors brought good news was a profound experience. I yearn to be the person who brings that same relief to other families, ensuring their loved ones make it through challenging times. My goal is to provide comfort and safety to minorities, particularly in the Vietnamese community. I aim to use my language skills to communicate effectively with patients and demonstrate that the emergency room is not as intimidating as it seems.
Financially, my circumstances are challenging. My parents work at a nail salon, but the business has been struggling. While we have some savings, it is not enough to cover the full tuition at my dream school, UT Austin. This scholarship would provide a much-needed financial boost, allowing me to focus on my education without the constant worry of financial strain. It would also serve as a motivation for me to work even harder to achieve my dream of transforming the field of medicine.
My academic and extracurricular achievements reflect my dedication and drive. I hold double president positions in the National Technical Honor Society and the Early College program. I am also a competitor and officer of HOSA, working towards national certifications in phlebotomy, first aid, and EKG. Remarkably, I will receive my associate's degree this December, graduating from college before high school, and I am ranked 14th out of 572 students in my class. These accomplishments highlight my commitment to excellence and my readiness to take on the challenges of higher education.
In conclusion, overcoming adversity has strengthened my resolve to succeed in STEM and make a meaningful impact in the medical field. This scholarship will not only alleviate my financial burden but also empower me to achieve my goals and inspire others, proving that women, especially those from minority backgrounds, can excel and lead in any field.
Kayla Nicole Monk Memorial Scholarship
My decision to further my education in STEM, specifically in the medical field, is deeply rooted in my childhood experiences. As a child, I frequently found myself in emergency rooms due to health scares involving my relatives and personal medical issues. During these visits, I observed the profound impact that doctors and surgeons had on my worried family members. The moments when they brought good news to the waiting room were transformative, lighting up the faces of my anxious family. This relief and gratitude were unmatched, and I knew from a young age that I wanted to be part of this profession that has the power to bring hope and healing during critical times.
My aspiration to become an Emergency Medicine physician is driven by a strong desire to provide not only medical care but also emotional support to patients and their families. The emergency room, often perceived as a place of fear and uncertainty, can be transformed into a place of comfort and reassurance through compassionate and empathetic care. I want to be the person who can deliver positive news and provide a comforting presence, especially to those who are most vulnerable.
This scholarship can significantly impact my journey by providing the financial support necessary for a quality college education. Pursuing a degree in Biology at a prestigious institution like UT Austin will equip me with the knowledge and skills needed to excel in the medical field. However, the financial burden of higher education is substantial, and this scholarship will alleviate some of that pressure, allowing me to focus more on my studies and less on financial concerns.
With this scholarship, I will be able to continue my education and work towards my goal of making a difference in the field of medicine. My focus will be on providing comfort and safety to minorities, particularly within the Vietnamese community. As a Vietnamese-American, I understand the cultural and language barriers that can make medical experiences even more daunting. My ability to speak Vietnamese will allow me to communicate effectively with Vietnamese patients, ensuring they feel understood and cared for during their medical emergencies. This cultural competence will help demystify the emergency room for many and create a more inclusive and supportive environment.
Furthermore, my involvement in leadership roles and extracurricular activities has prepared me for the challenges ahead. Currently, I serve as the President of the Early College program and the National Technical Honor Society at my high school. I am also a competitor and officer in HOSA, actively pursuing national certifications in phlebotomy, first aid, and EKG. These experiences have honed my leadership skills and deepened my commitment to making a positive impact in my community.
In conclusion, my choice to further my education in STEM is driven by a passion for emergency medicine and a desire to provide compassionate care to those in need. This scholarship will play a crucial role in helping me achieve my goals by easing the financial burden of college and allowing me to focus on my education and future career. With the support of this scholarship, I am confident that I can make a meaningful difference in the field of medicine, bringing comfort and hope to patients and their families, particularly those from minority communities.
Texas Women Empowerment Scholarship
Confronting gender disparity in Texas is deeply personal for me. In my sophomore year of high school, I ran for the position of President against a male opponent. Despite my extensive participation in extracurriculars like the National Technical Honor Society, Early College program, and HOSA, along with maintaining a weighted GPA higher than 4.0, I lost the election. I couldn't help but feel that my opponent's male charm played a significant role in the outcome. This experience was a stark reminder of the challenges women face, even when they are equally or more qualified.
Additionally, there have been numerous instances where I’ve had to collaborate with male classmates on projects, only to be subjected to mansplaining and having my contributions minimized or entirely overlooked. These experiences have fueled my determination to prove that women, especially women of color like myself, are fully capable of excelling in leadership roles and succeeding on our own merits.
I aspire to attend UT Austin and graduate with a Bachelor’s of Science in Biology. With this degree, I plan to make a significant impact, particularly within the Vietnamese community and among women. My ability to translate and provide a familiar, friendly face in the emergency room will help to demystify and reduce the fear associated with medical environments for many minority women. I want to create an inclusive and supportive atmosphere where women feel safe and understood, bridging the gap that often exists in healthcare for minority communities.
Currently, I hold double president positions in the National Technical Honor Society and the Early College program. I am also a competitor and officer in HOSA, actively challenging national certifications in phlebotomy, first aid, and EKG. Moreover, I am on track to receive my associate’s degree this December, effectively graduating from college before completing high school. These roles have provided me with a platform to advocate for women's equality and demonstrate that women can lead and achieve remarkable success.
My personal experiences and current roles motivate me to address gender disparity in Texas. Through my education and future career, I hope to empower women, especially those from minority backgrounds, to pursue their dreams and excel in fields where they are often underrepresented. By challenging stereotypes and breaking barriers, I aim to create a more equitable environment where women can thrive and be recognized for their contributions.
In conclusion, my journey has been shaped by firsthand encounters with gender disparity, and these experiences have fueled my resolve to advocate for women's equality. At UT Austin, I will continue to work towards this goal, using my degree to make a tangible difference in the lives of women in Texas. My volunteer work, leadership roles, and dedication to my studies are all steps towards a future where women, regardless of their background, have the opportunity to succeed and be valued equally.
Maxwell Tuan Nguyen Memorial Scholarship
From a young age, I was frequently exposed to the urgent and unpredictable environment of the emergency room. I vividly remember the countless times I accompanied my family members to the hospital due to various health scares. These experiences, though daunting, shaped my perception of the medical field and sparked my desire to pursue a career in medicine, specifically in emergency medicine.
Growing up, I witnessed the anxiety and fear etched on my relatives' faces as they awaited news from the doctors. The moments when the doctors or surgeons emerged with positive updates were transformative. The palpable relief and gratitude that washed over my family members were moments of profound emotional impact. It was in those instances that I recognized the unparalleled power of a medical professional to not only heal physical ailments but also to provide immense emotional comfort and reassurance. The ability to alleviate suffering and bring hope to worried families is what inspired me to pursue a career in the medical field.
My aspiration to become an Emergency Medicine physician is driven by the desire to be a source of comfort and hope for patients and their families during their most vulnerable moments. I want to be the person who can make a difference in someone’s life by providing not just medical care, but also emotional support. The emergency room, often seen as a place of fear and uncertainty, can be transformed into a place of healing and reassurance through compassionate and empathetic care.
Moreover, as a member of the Vietnamese community, I am acutely aware of the unique challenges faced by minorities in accessing and receiving healthcare. Language barriers, cultural differences, and mistrust of the medical system can all hinder effective medical treatment. By becoming a physician, I plan to bridge this gap and make a significant difference in the lives of minority patients. My ability to speak Vietnamese will allow me to communicate effectively with Vietnamese patients, helping to alleviate their fears and ensure they fully understand their medical situation and treatment options. This cultural competence will foster a more inclusive and comforting environment for patients who might otherwise feel marginalized.
Additionally, I aim to advocate for and implement culturally sensitive healthcare practices within the medical community. By educating my colleagues about the specific needs and concerns of minority populations, I hope to contribute to a more equitable healthcare system. My ultimate goal is to create an emergency room environment where every patient, regardless of their background, feels understood, respected, and cared for.
In summary, my inspiration to pursue a career in the medical field stems from my personal experiences with the emergency room and the profound impact of witnessing the relief and gratitude of my family during times of crisis. Through my career in emergency medicine, I plan to make a difference by providing compassionate care, breaking down language and cultural barriers, and advocating for more inclusive healthcare practices. By doing so, I hope to transform the emergency room into a place of hope and healing for all patients, particularly those from minority communities.
Vietnamese Student of Excellence Scholarship
Being born in the United States has been a blessing, but learning Vietnamese as my first language was challenging. This duality has profoundly shaped my educational journey. Growing up in California, I faced racism and discrimination. My classmates excluded me from activities because I didn't speak English, called me Korean or Chinese without knowing my heritage, and stereotyped me as the smartest simply because of my ethnicity. These experiences were isolating and frustrating but fueled my determination to succeed.
At the age of nine, my family moved to El Paso. This move was transformative. In El Paso, where people of color are the majority, I found a community that embraced diversity. Here, I finally felt a sense of belonging and acceptance. The change in environment allowed me to flourish both academically and socially.
Despite the challenges, my Vietnamese heritage has been a source of strength. California is known for its large Vietnamese community, but El Paso has a much smaller Vietnamese population. This has allowed me to help others by translating and assisting my family and community members. My ability to bridge the cultural and linguistic gap has made me a valuable resource and deepened my appreciation for my heritage.
My family's history has also played a crucial role in shaping my aspirations. My great-grandfather fought in the Vietnam War and brought our family to the United States. Despite the opportunities available here, I only know of two family members who have attended college. I am determined to be the first in my generation to not only attend college but to excel. I aim to graduate within the top 2% of my class and earn an associate's degree before receiving my high school diploma.
Currently, I am the president of our National Technical Honor Society (NTHS) chapter and the president of the Early College program at my school. These leadership roles have allowed me to inspire others and demonstrate that Vietnamese people can achieve great things. My goal is to become a doctor to fulfill my dreams and serve as a role model for other Vietnamese kids. I want to show them that it gets better and that they can achieve their goals despite the challenges they may face.
I am driven by a desire to make my family proud. I want to honor those who couldn't attend college by taking full advantage of the opportunities they never had. I also aim to continue the legacy of those who did attend college by achieving even greater heights. Ultimately, I aim to inspire every Vietnamese child I know by proving they can overcome obstacles and achieve their dreams.
In conclusion, my Vietnamese heritage has profoundly impacted my educational journey. The challenges I faced early on due to language barriers and discrimination have only strengthened my resolve to succeed. Moving to El Paso was a turning point that allowed me to embrace my identity and find a supportive community. My family's history and sacrifices drive me to excel academically and serve as a beacon of hope and inspiration for others. I am committed to making the most of the opportunities available to me and showing that with determination and resilience, anything is possible.
Taylor Swift ‘1989’ Fan Scholarship
My favorite song on 1989 will forever be Clean. Although I have never gone through heartbreak as the message of the song says, music is for the interpretation of the listener and I interpret it as ridding yourself of something in your life that drains you.
Taylor Swift has been my idol ever since I could remember. Every time I listened to one of her songs I felt a sense of empowerment and confidence overcome me, even with slow songs like The Last Time (also a favorite). She truly helped me believe that I can do anything if I set my mind to it, despite what others tell me and despite how hard things get.
Back to Clean. Clean is, again, a song about freeing yourself from something that was holding you back or bringing you negativity, and I heavily relate to the song. What I am freeing myself from; is fear. Fear is always the one thing holding me back from absolutely anything. In the lyrics of "Clean," Taylor describes the feeling of finally being able to breathe when she got a taste of what life was like without the thing that was holding her back. That was how I felt when I finally took a leap of faith by signing up for Early College High School. I was told by alumni and (at the time) current attendees that dual credit classes were hard and challenging and that I would drown in my work. Fear had begun to make its way up to my head but the curiosity and pure want for getting an Associate's degree while I was still in high school overtook the fear, so I just went for it. Of course, the program was challenging but I adjusted and learned to work with it. Yes, the workload is incredibly exhausting but with the workload came a community that I have learned to rely on. Just like Taylor, I got a taste of what it was like to live without fear looking over my shoulder constantly, and it felt exhilarating.
In the bridge of the song, Taylor talks about how good it feels to be clean of what she rid herself of, and how she would never make the mistake of letting it back into her life again. However, she also talks about how sometimes she misses it, despite how controlling it was over her life. I have gone through that same feeling. The feeling of fear was overwhelming, terrible and so controlling, but at the same time... it felt safe. While fear was dictating every aspect of my life negatively it was also defending me from getting hurt. What if I set myself up for failure, and fail out of Early College? It served as a guaranteed safety net that I can always stay in, and I sometimes miss the feeling of being guaranteed a safe place. However, with a safety net comes the inability to reach bigger goals. If I stay coddled up in the arms of fear, how will I never know the bigger things in life that I can reach if I let go just once?
Clean means a lot to me. It tells the story of my relationship with fear perfectly, and I cannot thank Taylor enough for putting it into words for me. Taylor Swift's songwriting is so amazing and I can find myself relating to a lot of her songs. I love her and her music with everything in me, and I hope to someday meet her and tell her she made me the girl I am today.